Thursday, May 8, 2008

"Free" Agent

I feel slightly repulsed with my own heterosexuality today. Like this voice in my head was like, You've been doing WHAT with him for the past six weeks?? Gross! I guess there is such a thing as internalized heterophobia.

When one gender or team irks me, I retreat to the other team. It's a defense mechanism. I guess it can be one good thing about being a free agent, but it's a way to avoid dealing with the issue.

Although I do like the effect monogamy has on me: it calms down the unpredictable fluctuations I feel.

Hopefully I'll never have to say something like, Umm, yeahh, can we skip the sex and just play Monopoly? Your genitalia is disgusting me today.

1 comment:

Queers United said...

have you heard of asexuality? many people share your sentiments.

http://www.asexuality.org

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