Cut and Paste

fbaddict: sometimes lesbian girls hit on me, and i just tell them im straight
fbaddict: like at pride....jesus
ShaneMo: haha
fbaddict: i was talking to this one girl, shes friends with my friends and i knew her before, and she was just like (talking to my boobs), "so uh...i forgot *mesmerized*...are you, lesbian? or bisexual?..or...straight?" *still staring*
fbaddict: i was just like .....
ShaneMo: hahaha
ShaneMo: WELL, you were displaying them
fbaddict: haha but still
fbaddict: its rude to STARE
ShaneMo: true
ShaneMo: what'd you say?
fbaddict: i was like, straight
fbaddict: and then she left me alone. somewhat
ShaneMo: haha
ShaneMo: ok i'm totally going to pride next year scantily clad
fbaddict: hahahaha do it
fbaddict: its a lot of fun
ShaneMo: and let the boobies speak for themselves
fbaddict: LOL
ShaneMo: i dunno. i wonder if ppl can read me
ShaneMo: i can look pretty "gay." and i can look pretty "straight," and sometimes I feel like the way I talk somehow gives me away
fbaddict: hm yeah true
fbaddict: theres also gay acting/straight acting
fbaddict: i can do that too
fbaddict: when im with alot of guys ill start acting like them
fbaddict: straight guys i mean
ShaneMo: hah yeah
ShaneMo: yeah...body language
fbaddict: yeah exactly
fbaddict: haha or with my gay guy friend, i act like such a girl
fbaddict: it just depends

ShaneMo: i'm finding my sexual attraction to women increasing. but it's still not equal to my sexual attraction to men
fbaddict: yeah same
fbaddict: but emotional attraction is stronger
ShaneMo: yeah
ShaneMo: just b/c it's not an even 50/50 doesn't mean it's not bisexuality
fbaddict: but what if sometimes its 90/10 leaning towards men, and sometimes 90/10 leaning towards women?
ShaneMo: it means you're fluid
ShaneMo: and that the label is just an approximation. words can't encompass reality fully anyways
fbaddict: yeah true
ShaneMo: we both think too much
fbaddict: yeah i know
fbaddict: we need to stop analyzing everything
fbaddict: its because we're women
fbaddict: women analyze everything
ShaneMo: maybe

ShaneMo: hah, if you get w/ this girl you like, you'll be seeing an older woman..a whole three years older than you!
fbaddict: an older woman?
fbaddict: when you call her old lady, it sounds really bad. like shes a grandma or something
ShaneMo: hahaha
ShaneMo: you started calling her old in the first place!
fbaddict: haha
ShaneMo: to annoy me b/c she's my age
ShaneMo: so i'm conjuring up geriatric mental pictures to annoy you back
ShaneMo: is it working?
fbaddict: haha great
fbaddict: yes lol
ShaneMo: be prepared if things don't work w/ her
ShaneMo: you don't deserve to come crashing down
fbaddict: ahhh
fbaddict: thats why im fighting my feelings for her
fbaddict: but i want it to work out
ShaneMo: yeah, life is hard
ShaneMo: it's all about trying to get what you want, dealing with not getting what you want, and managing when you do get what you want
fbaddict: yeah, thats a good summary of it

ShaneMo: i felt pretty gay before meeting the ex. then i saw him and was whipped back into straight mode
fbaddict: haha
fbaddict: one day it could be permanent though
fbaddict: you never know
fbaddict: i'm scared of that
ShaneMo: true...maybe you end up loving someone so much that you don't turn back
fbaddict: honestly
fbaddict: yeah exactly
ShaneMo: scared of being gay or straight or either?
fbaddict: lol i feel really bad for saying this
fbaddict: but i'd be really scared of being gay
fbaddict: like 100%
ShaneMo: yeah, i've felt that way
fbaddict: cause your life would be so hard
ShaneMo: yeah...i dunno..there's a safety in bisexuality
ShaneMo: even tho it gets stereotyped too
ShaneMo: well, the safest is heterosexuality
ShaneMo: right, well, there's no way i'm a het
fbaddict: shit....do you think one mode could be permanent?
ShaneMo: well...if you end up in a long-term monogmaous relationship...that doesn't change being bi
fbaddict: but what if you arent attracted to anyone else but that one person
ShaneMo: i mean...even if you're a monosexual...you can still be attracted to other ppl
fbaddict: well you can have crushes, but i dunno
ShaneMo: yeah i know what you mean
fbaddict: i guess technically, i was a lesbian for a few months
ShaneMo: that's an odd sentence
fbaddict: why?
ShaneMo: not in a bad way. just like..."those were my lesbo months"
fbaddict: haha, hasbian
ShaneMo: hahahaha
ShaneMo: okay...even if you're 100% committed and into one person
ShaneMo: i dunno...you can still identify as bi
fbaddict: yeah but you arent attracted to men
fbaddict: so you'd be lying to yourself
ShaneMo: but men are a possibility
fbaddict: you could identify as the person-sexual..like "Johnsexual" for example
ShaneMo: okay...there's current sexuality and entire sexuality
fbaddict: true
ShaneMo: at that time, your current sexuality was lesbian/for one girl
fbaddict: haha
fbaddict: it wasnt even lesbian
fbaddict: i didnt like other girls
fbaddict: but then it was heterosexuality for a long time
fbaddict: until this past summer again
fbaddict: with discovering my crush on amy lee and this new girl
ShaneMo: hah, the evanescence singer?
fbaddict: haha yea
ShaneMo: you should write amy lee a letter
ShaneMo: "thanks for getting me in touch with my inner lesbian"
fbaddict: LOL
fbaddict: that would be creepy

ShaneMo: we can be kinda lame
fbaddict: yeah but oh well
ShaneMo: at least we don't want to take over the world like my stalker
fbaddict: well, soon enough
ShaneMo: haha, yes, i shall achieve world domination through sarcasm and bitterness
ShaneMo: and you shall be my sidekick
fbaddict: haha
ShaneMo: you'll wear a skirt and a bra like you did at pride
fbaddict: hey, why do I have to be the sidekick?
ShaneMo: because i'm older
fbaddict: and fishnets
ShaneMo: hahaha
fbaddict: fuck outfit
fbaddict: yeah lol
fbaddict: hooker outfit
ShaneMo: yeah, we're two classy bitches